somehow i never thought it would turn out this way. it's just like a drama that normally you watched it on the television. the problem.. the cause is just the same. it is not one side fault but most probably both side and i do admit that. when i watched some sort of drama like cerekarama or samarinda or akasia, the word that usually came out from my mouth ..
" the guy tak patut .. "
" but then the girl shud be bla bla bla .."
" ala both side fault, just forgive and forget it. getting back together.. kan senang. lagi pun guy tu ensem kot "
easy isn't it ? but it is not as easy as you expect. my story line is just the same like those kind of drama. but then takde le lak sebijik cam nora elena tu kan. kalo sebijik definitely i would love it exclude the part where nora kene raped. that one is a scary part. sempat lagi kan.. uhuhu
me and him .. we do have those kind of problems. almost 3 years we had been together as a 'friend' i would say that i had learn a LOT and still learning. i am not sure about him but i think he learned too. but somehow we are just a human. there is sometimes that we can't control it and back to our own habits. that is the time where you or your partner need to be more rational to calm the situation. you need to help each other and be more understanding to overcome the problems.
within this 3 years, jangan cakap la.. segala macam merajuk, menangis, bergado, lawan status fb, jeles, stress,makan hati hempedu, mengada, menggedik ( ok this part i am not :p) da jadi. and of course all those kind of thing i am the winner. sapa yg paling banyak merajuk.. erk of course me. sape yg paling banyak nangis.. erk kantoi me too. tapi dia menang part jeles. i can't beat that. we do have the on and off breaking up situation. don't be surprise. pagi cakap lain petang tu da ok. tengah ari cakap nak kawan biasa je and tak sampai 18 minit da tarik le balik. too weird isn't it but that was us. the longest breaking off time that we had if i'm not mistaken was 2 days.but frankly as for me, i am not comfortable with this kind of thing and tak nak mende tu jadi satu habit because i think it is not a healthy relationship.
currently we are facing some issue where it's a bit difficult for me. i am not sure what am i going to do but i just hope that he will pull me back because i want to stay. might be the sparks between us has gone and we both need to find it together.
: )
there is one thing for sure. i still feel the 'palpitation' part when i saw him. mcm erk.. tolong ler. penat kot jantung nak rasa cmtu. dlu masa mule2 lagi obvious kott.. and he definitely didn't know about this
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